Are you kidding me ?!

So I'm sitting here in ms. shah's class big surprise ! HAAHA, but anywho, I'm so sasd I don't get to cook =( . Chef sent me out, and on top of that fernan isnt here today for some reason?! LMAO, i should check up on that . Maybe I got him sick, BOOO thatd suck ass .

I ain't feeling at my utmost best right now at all . From my neck and back hurting, to this huge headache of mine that aleve didn;t help at all . FUCK YOU ALEVE . Haaha anyways ..And the fact that I have like ten million bruises from volleyball and a game that I was seriosuly looking forward to play in today . Hopefully I still do ! ( She be helluh yelling all up in my ear right now ..Today didn't start off wonderful either . I kept waking myself up hellluh early once 5AM came around . Then I thought I was doing good when I remembered to get my table some juice for cook day today, too bad I'm not cooking ..But yeah I got some of that wonderful Pineapple OJ and my mom got me some starbucks and my favorite scones . I was feeling a tad too generous today and I let everyone take a sippy sip outta my drank and surprise surprise everyone finished it, saving me nothing . I hope they all get sick as hell now, they deserve it . Oh yeah and Jasmin ehffing ate all my goddamn scones FUCK . rien for le petit dejuener pour moi . Wonderful . I didnt wanna do anything in geo today, so that class went on forever and ever and ever . I'm busy writing to ms. shah now k bye ,

Oh jeebus,

I miss volleyball I havent shown for awhile, but I definitely have reason to . NO ONE EHFFING TELLS ME SHIT . so whatever, I'm over this season . All i wanna do is play and there's all this bullshit going on already, bleh FUCK this .

AGH

My father is being such a woman lately niggadamn . He's getting all butthurt all of a sudden becuhs I spend so much time with my mom . And that I never wanna spend time with him . But when I do spend time with him he just makes me act as everything other than a daughter and wait on him hand and foot . As when I'm with my mom I can use my phone and talk to her about everything ! and him I have to lie act stupid as if I have experienced nothing becuhs nothing about what I do ever cuhs he wouldn't let me . Also it's always so awkward when we talk to each other . AND it's not like it hasn't been like this since the boys started moving out . He just noticed absolutely too late, I'm already too tight with mom . And altho whenever me and my mom get in millions of fights and he asks me why I spend so much time with a person who I fight with so much, its cuhs I love my momma to death . She's here more throughout my life than he has, he never shows up to any of my competitions or games or meets or anything and it's all becuhs he's too busy with the little boys he coaches, or the sport that he's caught up in is more important than what I've got . And you know i'd rather not have him there anyways cuhs I'm not allowed to do or say anything in front of him anyways . And we'd leave early too cuhs he's 'too tired' . Bleh i hate how he comes home and sits on his ass and yells at me cuhs it seems like i never do anything, I'm ALWAYS helping mom . I'm always cleaning, and I know your at work for how ever many hours but still your the ehffing 'man of the house' right ? where's the man in sitting on his ass and being an ehffing hyprocrite . It's not my fault you ehffed your child hood up and couldnt go to college to get a better job . You're still smart you can still go to school, like all the other adults . But don't take that shit out on me, I'm smart enough to get good grades and go to college and be ehffing SUCCESSFUL . damn . i'm tired of you and your bullshit you don't get love for a reason, cuhs I have no reason to love you honestly . You know nothing about me, you don't know me like mom does ..You just take credit for shit mom does for me . And thas not fair cuhs mom raises me as if she were a single mom on her own no joke . Cuhs why ? YOU'RE NEVER AROUND for me . Just your fucking players so you know what, I don't care for your time, pride, or love anymore it really doesn't mean much to me . You can be this great visionary to my brothers but to me you aint shit .