Oh jeebus,

I miss volleyball I havent shown for awhile, but I definitely have reason to . NO ONE EHFFING TELLS ME SHIT . so whatever, I'm over this season . All i wanna do is play and there's all this bullshit going on already, bleh FUCK this .

AGH

My father is being such a woman lately niggadamn . He's getting all butthurt all of a sudden becuhs I spend so much time with my mom . And that I never wanna spend time with him . But when I do spend time with him he just makes me act as everything other than a daughter and wait on him hand and foot . As when I'm with my mom I can use my phone and talk to her about everything ! and him I have to lie act stupid as if I have experienced nothing becuhs nothing about what I do ever cuhs he wouldn't let me . Also it's always so awkward when we talk to each other . AND it's not like it hasn't been like this since the boys started moving out . He just noticed absolutely too late, I'm already too tight with mom . And altho whenever me and my mom get in millions of fights and he asks me why I spend so much time with a person who I fight with so much, its cuhs I love my momma to death . She's here more throughout my life than he has, he never shows up to any of my competitions or games or meets or anything and it's all becuhs he's too busy with the little boys he coaches, or the sport that he's caught up in is more important than what I've got . And you know i'd rather not have him there anyways cuhs I'm not allowed to do or say anything in front of him anyways . And we'd leave early too cuhs he's 'too tired' . Bleh i hate how he comes home and sits on his ass and yells at me cuhs it seems like i never do anything, I'm ALWAYS helping mom . I'm always cleaning, and I know your at work for how ever many hours but still your the ehffing 'man of the house' right ? where's the man in sitting on his ass and being an ehffing hyprocrite . It's not my fault you ehffed your child hood up and couldnt go to college to get a better job . You're still smart you can still go to school, like all the other adults . But don't take that shit out on me, I'm smart enough to get good grades and go to college and be ehffing SUCCESSFUL . damn . i'm tired of you and your bullshit you don't get love for a reason, cuhs I have no reason to love you honestly . You know nothing about me, you don't know me like mom does ..You just take credit for shit mom does for me . And thas not fair cuhs mom raises me as if she were a single mom on her own no joke . Cuhs why ? YOU'RE NEVER AROUND for me . Just your fucking players so you know what, I don't care for your time, pride, or love anymore it really doesn't mean much to me . You can be this great visionary to my brothers but to me you aint shit .

Did I tell you ..

I absolutely LOVE ..Matt Enriquez

and Brian Puspos .

YES

I have volleyball tonite . UGH I missed it so ehffing much xP . I hellluh fell in love with that shit . AND I've gotten so much better it's like boss status man ..LOL . But yeah so so pumped right and its not until tonite (x

The day I've been waiting for .

Today was a damn good day ! Cept that I woke up helllluh early and couldn't go back to sleep . But overall very good indeeed . Since I woke up quite early I tried like millions of times to go back to sleep and then since i couldn't I gave up LMAO . I got the mac for the day too ! YAY YAY YAY . happy times . I didnt eat much for breakfast or lunch or dinner ? Ugh I haven't been as hungry as usual lately . Cuhs I used to be able to eat a bear . But now I'm just at cub status ..Lmao . But yeah . Then Fernan came over ! We looooked helluh days for something to watch, we finally chose Wall-E . With the fat baby people (= And we ate and yeah . Then vivian showed up ! YAY . My bestfrand and my boyfrand in my house at the same time ! Lololol . Then Fernan left cuhs we were gonna start having our top secret meeting .. HAAHA . Me & vivian were left downstairs watching ANTM and chatttting bout helluh random shiets ? It was goood catching up with her tho . I don't see her very often and she lives helllluh close tho (x God we're stupid . Anyways . Oh yeah then Charlotte Kamron Thuy and Donovan showed up haaha with foood ! And then roxanne . We sorta then got started with our meeting but not really . We were just there doing nothing til joyce showed up . haaha then we went over pretty much everything . But since me and vivian were helluh bored we ran to my room and helluh came out with masks on and whatnot and after we just talking dirty to each other LMAO . good stuff . Then my momma showed up not too happy xP . It's not my fault she can't keep her promises . That pretty much ended the happiness . HAAHA . you dont need to know the rest . Kbye

So now you know ..

OH YEAH ..

Guess who's going to be very very damn happy in 4-7 business days ?! MOI ! Parce que mes chaussures sont à venir ! Fuck yeah ! . Je vais être très heureux ! Mhhm . Cette semaine va être une très bonne semaine . Et j'ai l'occasion de voir mon petit copain et mes amis . Et le volley and la danse est cette semaine aussi ! WOOOOP . This week is going to be damn good . I still remember my francais as you can see (=

So now you know ..

DAMN ! Je suis desolee blogspot ..

I'm sorry it's been awhile ! haaha, I've just been yaknow busy ..on other sites . Mostly twitter tho (= . Anywho . These past uh ..days have been very normal and easy-going nothing just out there for me . I missed my blogspot tho . HAAHAHA . I can't wait til Brandon comes back from camping so I can talk it up wiff him again and yeah . I can't wait til tomorrow cuhs Fernan's visiting and we have meeting after that . And then the next day he's gonna visit again, AND Volleyball ! My favorite school sport of all . I didn't know I'd love it this much ! But yeah . Thas all you really missed out on and needed to be updaated with i guess . Kbye !

So now you know ..