Back to Normality .

So everythangs normal now ! thank jeebus . I can talk to my dad and say hi and what not (= .

i LOVE it.

Early Morning Excitement ..

So today is our Voyage a SF ! With all the french classes (= I'm excited ..and after we get back I will be rushing off to my first meet ! WOOOOO. todays going to be a good day I can feel it ..I can't wait to be in his arms . Parting from him is always hard haaha, it sometimes takes hours, until it finally hits us that we'll be late . i can't wait to see him, hold him, kiss him. I got the sweetest love, ahaah .

SO far so good..

So monday was nothang, no confrontation no nothang ..but tuesday a little approach, father decided to show to my track practice . scared me to death but at least I was doing goood with my explosions and baton tossing . until after when he told me i was taking too long getting changedd ..the fck ? bleh whatever it could have been SO much worse . but besides this, my days at school and everywhere but home are getting so much better . Life's is almost back to normal, I wish he would just gimme my beatings and yell at me already ! i hate not having my dadums to run to and say "hello" and "i love you" yaknow ..i wish he would understand why I did what I did this time, there's a reason cuhs if he were to meet him maybe he'd understand why I risked it all for him ..

Secret's Out!

Looks like my dad found out about him, in which I will be worried to death all day today for when he shows up ..why does he feel the need to take my personal shtuff while I'm sleeping. It's technically his fault ..if he didnt want to see somethang like that then he shouldnt have taken it in the first place; Who am I keedang i sound ridiculous ..i should have listened to my mom to keep my phone off while I'm at home with him around . But he usually never does stuff like that . But what his usual reaction would have been wasn't what happened ?

he didn't do anythang, no harm done ..yet ? I'm scared, I don't know when he'll show or if he'll show ..I really don't want anythang bad to happy to [him] or my dad . I could really go for some comfort fooood ...

It is now when I realize why I risked it for him and I'm glad I did, but then again I don't wanna put him at risk ..

Hello BlogSpot !

I'M BACK ! and I'll be blogging probably everyday if I find time, but I'ma cut this short since its the first post.