My two important guys ..

Je suis contente, Brandon adore quand je suis contente . J'adore quand Brandon est content . Je suis triste quand Brandon est triste . Brandon est spécialement triste quand je suis triste . Il est ce que je suis . Je suis c'est qu'il est . Nous sommes une seule personne . Je l'adore, comme un copain et plus .

Estoy feliz, Brandon ama cuando estoy feliz. Me encanta cuando Brandon es feliz. Estoy triste cuando Brandon es triste. Brandon es especialmente triste cuando estoy triste. Es lo que soy. Estoy que lo es. Somos una sola persona. Me encanta como un amigo y mucho más.

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Je souris quand il sourit, il sourit quand je souris. Il rit quand je ris, je ris quand il rit . Nous partageons un battement de cœur, les coups les uns pour les autres. Nous partageons un amour inconditionnel et rafraîchissant . Et tous les jours mon coeur bat pour une raison, de vous voir et d'être proche de vous à chaque seconde de chaque minute de chaque heure de chaque jour .

Sonrisa cuando me sonríe, sonríe cuando sonrisa. Él se ríe cuando me río, me río cuando se ríe.
Compartimos un latido del corazón, batiendo el uno para el otro. Compartimos un amor incondicional y refrescante. Y cada día, mi corazón late por una razón, que ver y estar cerca de usted cada segundo de cada minuto de cada hora de cada día.

I'll translate another time .

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Francais Projet Final

So we met up around four in the borders cafe, since not everyone was there yet me & chu left for Q-Cup . We were determined for Q-Pop Chicken but ended up getting the Fried Tofu and a Thai Iced Tea . We were helluh reading the menu, and we got confused as to what the hell black chocolate milk tea is ? HAAHA, but yeah anyways . We walked back to borders only to find that our group had moved outside of target, finding Samir on our way there . Two guys were missing which didn't hurt us too much, but still we would have like having everyone present . So Sabrina, Umeet, Kiren, Sonia, Ben, Samir, Chu, and I sat there for like half an hour waiting on Xavier to finally make his arrival, in the mean time we sat around spying on my "boothang" . Which was the hobo sleeping at the other table, Lol . Then some random dude on a bike helluh rode up and started stepping on his head, and threw a cigarrette at him ?! Lol . Then they both left . And Xavier showed, we finally started discussing our project, until it got helluh windy and cold . So we decided to move to like Q-Cup but it was too full already ! So we kept walking until Ohana, where it was full there too . But we sat outside anyways until we noticed that some cashier lady was helluh mad-mugging us ! So we left for our original meeting spot, Borders . Where we sat and layed and completely let go and chilled in the computers and technology section . Ahaah, where Xavier layed down the entire story for our video of 'Harry Potter and the Book of Fire' helluh cheesy but exciting . Anyways once we were done we split up, Sabrina Kiren and Umeet left for home while Sonia, Samir, Ben, Chu, Xavier, and I left for little ceasers . We bought two large cheese pizzas and one large pepperoni . Ahaah, and killed it in less than 15 minutes . After Sonia left cuhs her dad was getting so mad . Then Stevie a few minutes after, and I was left with all the guys . We hung around Borders for a little longer, but then we all decided to leave . Ending the day that made up for the last three . Thanks guys .

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Oh my

I haven't updated for awhile, I have so many drafts that I deleted cuhs I'm too lazy to finish them so whats the use ? My days have been moody, dreary, and all that . I need some alone time to rethink so much . and take even more into consideration . I have plenty on my mind too, with it being the end of the year and all . I'm totally losing a lot of myself to the world . I need to get a start on a lot of projects, and put in end to lots of madness . Everything's so hectic I can't manage myself anymore . What's wrong with me, I don't feel like myself at all . I'm going to take a long nap, and escape from this thing I call a life, and then recooperate myself for the meeting @ 4 . Great, k bye .

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On my baby,

So I'm doing yet again, another post on my babycakes . Becuhs things feel so different, how did we go from head over heels in "love" to absolutely nothing close to it at all . We don't look different, but the feeling when I'm with you is feeling empty now . Things seriously changed after [it] happened and since its been happenening . I want the old us back . I don't wanna lose us,

Je veux acheter cette robe !

MAINTENANT . Ahaah, Je veux que cette robe, j'ai besoin de cette robe
Dommage c'est quarante dollars. J'ai besoin de l'argent .

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I thought she was my favorite,

I feel so betrayed by her haaha, tho it's over the dumbest reason ever I'm still mad at her . Tho she gave me an opportunity to do my show, and I'm taking it . BLEH . LOL K bye .

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I-Search

So we're in Mr. Mann's room right now, and he's kinda scaring the crap outta me . LOL, he's never been so friendly like this to me at all . It's kinda freaky ! Haaha, and nam is like ehffing reading everything I'm typing, and helluh needs to stop ! HAAHA . And we're working on our I-Search stuff, I want to be an Elementary School Teacher. Haaha for some reason, It would be super cute tho . Oh yeah with a part-time in Photography . Haaha, iI'm still super hungry . UGH . I can't wait for lunch man . K bye I gots to help nam now ..

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J'ai besoin de ..

Dim Sum Pad Thai Sushi Ice Cream & Cheetos ,Comfort Food, to make up for these past few days . And help me think ..




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I lost,

Screaming at the top of lungs, constantly asking myself "What's wrong with me ?! Am I out of my mind ?" Everyone else was very prepared, but I was just ready for anything . Foolishly, I gave in . What's so bad about it anyways, it didn't feel like much of a big deal afterwards anyways ?

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Quite an Apology,

If I may say so myself . He stayed up until 3 AM, making arrows and a dozen paper flowers, that i love . Just so he could set up outside Fourth Block with signs saying "I'm Stupid", "I'm Sorry", and "I Love You" and a note that put the cherry right on top ! haaha, I wish everyone else could see how wonderful & great he treats me despite the foolish and stupid mistakes and minor fights . He always finds his way to make up for it, and that's what I love oh so much . Thanks Fernabear, I love you too .

^^Click for letter

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Volleyball Open Gym

Made me super happy, thanks "Team Salsa" and the Mangina, and Tameeka . (=

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I'm a Foolish Child

How could I let you take advantage of me like that ? You seriously let me down, if you were someone else it wouldn't be as big of a deal as it is . But too bad you're you, I don't know what to say or do . You scare me now, I'm beginning to see who you truly are . I still accept you and love you all the same it's just this thing is all up in the way, It's bugging me like crazy . It's biting at my innocence and making me even more scared, I know I'll never look at you the same way. I know I'll never hug you the same way either, It's always just going to be awkward between us . Even if we do talk it out and make up . I already know many tears will be shed, becuhs lots have already . I'm ready for it, I'm not okay with it . Becuhs I told myself I wouldn't cry over absurd things anymore . Too bad I will be, and too bad I am . You truly don't understand how much I feel hurt and betrayed for some reason, You totally made yourself look bad . You're a douche, but I forgive you ? Er I will sooner or later . This just makes everything bad between us, and tho we may be strong enough to continue . It's always going to hurt becuhs I know . and I won't ever forget . Especially the situation, time, and place you confessed to me, in which makes it all the more horrible . I still love you, forgive you, and thank you for everything else, but it all still does not change a thing of today . What's going to happen to us ?

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Finally

Our picture has come true ..Flickr

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Bonne Cinq Mois Fernababy !

I haven't posted in awhile cuhs well I've got nothang special going for me lately and I've been quite busy ! Especially with all these darn projects ..but I'm still getting thru the day .

I actually decided to dress up for the sake of "Jimmy Neutron Day", or simply Nerd Day . Ahaah . I ended up looking pretty darn good I must say ! (= HAAHA . But anyways, Chelsea Tequila arrived at my house at 630 haaha . It was helluh later than I thought ! Lol, but its k . We got to school and I accidently slammed the car door when chelsea was thanking my brother for the ride ! LOL . Good stuff, haaha . Too bad no one yelled stripper at chelsea continuously cuhs she would have stripped ! I yet again did not turn hw for French class cuhs I didnt know what it was cuhs I never do haaha, cuhs I never write it down cuhs I say I will ask someone later but I never do ! UGH, haaha . I'm heading really down-hill in that class haaha I still at least have a B . But I need an A so I guess I'll start up again ..Too tired to post about the rest of the day so yeah, Au Revoir .

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A Glorious Day for JFK 'Running Club'

My day started out with me freaking out about how I woke up a whole Sixteen Minutes late ahaah ! and then yeah I went to school decided to wear my booty cargo shorts ! WOOP . First block we ate an official "Francais Petit Dejeuner" LOL . Crepes made by madame qadir, qhiche, nutella, cwoissants, cider, nesquik, and Fernabear attempted to make a crepe ..didn't crap 'em up no worries ! LOL . But everythang was so darn delicious ! fasho . Advisory we ended going to the Round Room for a lecture on the PBL, Peanut Butter & Lamb Project . Which until this cooch named fernan thought the homo-est thang EVER . He's so not straight ..Je t'adore de toute façon . Second block I got major lazy ! as usual ..third block, WATER POLO . Crazy shtuff and not as violent as expected (= I had "SEX" in the shower with chelsea ..yet again ! and then didn't get to eat ..we only made it to the car and thas as far as it went . Cuhs I couldnt decide if I wanted to eat and If so then what I would want to eat . LOL . So i somehow ended up being late to Computers where everythang pissed me off ! UGH i wish I didnt show at all . But whatever the meet made everythang so much better ! everythang shall be self-explanatory ..Flickr

G'nite World !

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Okay So I Made A Mistake Last Post

Ahaah, My virgin eyes have already been partially ruined before the thing with joyce, It was like last friday with Tyeshia Tyeesir Afrolocks ..I don't really wanna go into detail about it haaha .

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Shwine Ploo

I feel disgusting and sick, I havent posted for awhile . At first I started getting an itchy throat sunday afternoon and then it came full force and now my throat hurts like a bitch when I talk but my voice isnt scratchy or anything so I am quite confused . And yesterday we started swim in PE I love it lots, I just hate having to wash my hair and rinse my body and all those wonderful shenanigans after . ugh, and since yesterday my eyes have been hurting lots especially when I wake up in the morning and naps and what not . and my nose is all shtuffy and I cant shmell nothang ahaah ! this is depressing me, and I still don't believe I'm sick . Lol . My virgin eyes have also lost their innocence, thanks to joyce xP LOL . UGH, I'm hungry ! K bye,

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He's supposed to bring us down ?

Since when ? Coaches are supposed to train you, challenge you, inspire you, push you, and all that good shtuff . I get that from every other coach, but my own . Every sprinter hates him with a passion, his students could do without . So why not just leave our school ? If you're so good of a coach then coach at a different school torture other students . Upset, guilt, and depress others . YOU ASS . Three more days, and IM DONE . You best believe, it's not like yous mah daddy or nothing so don't act like it . Don't treat me like I'm dumb, don't make me feel guilty when you deserve some blame . Fuck off man . Leave me the fuck alone .

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Bon Anniversaire Charlotte et Donoman .

Happy Birthday Charlotte, Happy Birthday Donovan
Feliz Cumpleanos Charlotte, Feliz Cumpleanos Donovan
Maligayang Kaarawan Charlotte, Maligayang Kaarawan Donovan

I totally forgot to write about yesterday so I will ..right now ! haaha, So yesterday we had our last track meet, besides finals but yeah . pretty sad, and empty in that stadium than usual . I placed numero uno in the 100M, but unknowingly was removed from 4x400 ? Ugh and sucked ass in the 4x100 . YAY . Nothang too good about the meet besides the 100m and the Introduction that finally happened . Altho he thinks he didnt do too hot, he still did pretty darn goood . I mean being the first boyfriend ever outta all my mom's five children haaha He did goood . She looved him, she thinks he's a good guy and all this other great shtuff so yeah, I'm content ..

Today we finally had our track meet in PE, pretty darn exciting I must say . Ahaah, I was surprised I placed (first?) in long jump cuhs I never do so hot in the whole 'jump' part of it all haahahaha ! but it was exciting, Today was also charlotte&donovan's birthday as you can tell ! I hope you both had goood ones (= ! So I guess i HAVE to go to practice even tho I do not belong in 4x100 at all, I can stick with just one event . I have no problem with it . I wish charlotte was doing it, she does so much better with the handoff I hate my fooolish mistake of thinking I could do it ..bleh .Whatever kbye,

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Sarcasm is too obvious .

I've known all three of you for such short time and easily trusted you, made you a good friend of mine . Silly Me, how dare I ..but then again how dare you . Hurt me, betray me, steal from me right under my nose, thas what you all did . I'm sorry for trusting you, treating you like a good friend, accepting you, held your hand when you cried, and stayed with you thru all the bullshit . and you still ended up doing this to me, thanks a lot you guys, you're great friends . ahaah, sarcasm is too obvious, but honestly three gals will not be seeing the charming side of me any longer ..

Gal #1: I've known you since seventh grade, since the first day of school you tried to steal me from my friends ? and they got mad at you I offered to still be your friend, but you didn't take it up . And well we didnt start talking til well recently . I held your hand, tho you didnt want me to, when those people left you hanging, I cheered you on . I shared my shtuff with you . But you, treat me like you're superior and I'm the ground you walk on . You gave me nothang, no friendship no feeling . Cuhs your pride holds you back. Your insecurities closed you shut, to everything . But soooner or later you'll learn that you hafta change and open up to SOMEONE . yadig ?

Gal #2: You're a friend, and a friend to my friends . But you over here, tryna think you're sly or some shtuff and steal my closest friend from me ? I mean i usually would never get jealous over little girl shit like this but I mean forreal ..grow up . Just cuhs your jealous cuhs I've known her longer, I'm closer to her family, I'm right around the corner, I spend half my time that I do have with her . Doesn't mean you can try to take her away from me . I mean if I'm talking to her don't fucking interrupt or step in front . Cuhs bitch I will push you . And don't hit me like that and act like it's nothing and when I hit you back "playing around" like you act like I'm attacking you, I meean fuck off if you play that game then fucking bring it on bitch . I've got plenty of anger waiting inside for you so be ready if you think you handle it .

Gal#3: a Best friend of my own heart, I thought you truly meant something to me . We both held each other's hand when the going went absolutely tough. And we cried on the phone together too . You had my back for all this time and you offered my security and to help me escape from it all . But really does everything always hafta be about you ? it looks so ugly on you ..yaknow the whole self-centered thang and that "I'm always right" or the "end of the world" kinda thang yadig. Grow some balls, and put them to use .

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Procrastination

Took over and now i'm stuck confused and worried about my horrible grade that is slipping in French daarn it !

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Strongly advise,

you to visit: http://sappnasty.blogspot.com/ .
Tyeesir's Blog, and scroooll down to the ground .
Enjoy tha picture as much as I enjoyed that cake !

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Friends again ..

so it seems [they] worked their problems out ..thank god . It was hard seeing them fight like beeeezies they are . but im glad it's alll settled ..

^^Enjoy my view from the chair .

So im here at my aunty valy's dentist office in freaking Antioch ..YAY . ahaah, such fun ; My appointment went great as usual . cept i have a cavity -_________-; so i hafta to come back with my brother who has four ?! what the hell has he been eating haaha . so yeah Im reallly tired cuhs my mom made me wake up hellsa early just for this . bu t im super happy i get to go to my banquet ahaah . my moms a beezy she made it sound like it was just my brothers appointment and that we were boutta be here all day freaking long . but i might go to danville so i can go to her house for thee fight ! ahaah, gotta go now . For les nourritures and la maison .

^^the results of a minor check-up .

BYE blog ;

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It seems as tho ..

.. you will never cease to amaze me .

Nothang ever gets old with you, and nothing ever will . thas what it feels like, you give me so much to look forward to, to smile about, to be happy for, to be thankful for, to love, to cherish, and to hope for . Your reassurance & comfort is promising and enjoyable . You make my everyday, and altho I feel as if I'm slowly drifting from my close kids becuhs of you, at the moment you're all I need for that smile when I need it most, and that love that fills me when I'm left so empty most times . It makes me cry sometimes, but only thru happiness ..it makes me feel super dumb but it always happens . But all thanks to you . You've accepted every thing about me, and you make it seem like my imperfections are the best parts of me . You take every piece of crap I complain, bitch, and moan about and sit there and take it . You're okay with kicking ass for me and sticking up for me like a real man, as much as you're cool with me kicking ass myself . You make everythang worth smiling and feeling good about, Thank You . And tho this is like the corniest, gayest, dumbest piece of cliche crap ever I just want you to know I'm always thinking of you and thanking you .

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Selfish Stubborn Stingy Kinda Gal,

Thas what you are,

As a team we always try to make things work ..but do you ?

Of Course Not, you have too much pride.

As a family we always try to share and be generous ..but do you ?

Nope, cuhs you've only got more than enough for you&yourself .

As friends we tell each other everythang, knowing [we] can trust each other ..but do you ?

HELL NO, cuhs apparently nothang's secret especially thru your own assumption of some things, I mean come on altho you made yours obvious, [we] ALL kept your secrets and you can't keep one you made up to yourself ?

GET OVER your insecurities and stop hurting the people who love, care, understand, and who would have always been there for YOU for stupid drama shit like this ..live up to the balls you appear to have and just fucking apologize with meaning to her . I love you both, but seriously ..I mean come on;

For the sake of Princess&Tyeesir , the team, the family, the friendship ?

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DUUUDE,

vhaat the ehff man, I can't make damn brownies for compuuters cuhs i dont have ehffing Vegetable Oil ! DARN IT, and im not boutta buy no brownies from the store . thas no fun ! haaha, this sucks some super girl balls ..

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